Good morning fellow Warriors!!!!
I think maintaing a solid frame of mind 24/7 is certainly a struggle, not only for Fibro but for depression and anxiety as well. I have days where I can actually get things done and feel good about myself. Then I start to realize that I am running myself ragged. I do my best to go for a walk when it’s not too hot, so I go early in the morning. Well this morning, all my extremeties were tingling and sore everywhere so I had to leave and go home ASAP! I started feeling weak and extremely lethargic. Driving home was very challenging. This is when I truly understand and confronted with the nature of the beast of fibromyalgia and bipolar/anxiety. It stops me dead in my tracks to where I can no longer function normally. I’m home resting and I’m just completely and utterly exhausted. I have to listen to my body and rest, although it brings me to tears when my body doesn’t funtion like it should!
I literally have to pep talk myself so I don’t fall into anxiety or/and depression.Especially when I’m hurting. But what is this limit? How do you know when the fatigue and muscle aches/ soreness will arise? You don’t! Those are the facts! For me I just have to keep trying and not let this bullshit take over my life. If I go somewhere I bring the necessities like Biofreeze, CBD oils, Medical Mj, muscle relaxer and of course heating pads LOL! Unfortunatley I didn’t have any of them this morning. Ugh!
I have to find the right kind of “pace” for me, I’m still searching and I do have hope to find it one day. I still miss my old active lifestyle, but I can’t dwell on it because I still need to live life the best way I can and if that means for me to chill for a day or two….so be it! I certainly am still clueless at times where I don’t know if I’m coming or going, but I believe it’s part of the process of living life on life’s terms.
I hope you all have a pain free day!