When you know pain is eventually going to subside and maybe tolerate, hope helps you carry those burdens. If you have any kind of chronic pain after a while or consecutive days of it , you may start to feel hopeless and helpless. Chronic pain institutes an extended and destructive cascade of neuroedocrine dysregulation, fatigue, general discomfort, joint pain, muscle aches are especially #1 on the list and a decreased mental and physical function. When you feel the pain is uncontrollable, I get an overwhelming sense of stress which in turn triggers my bipolar, anxiety and depression…on the contrary makes all these symptoms worsen.
Although, I try my best to be pro-active with fibro and bipolar, honestly although I have hope and refuse to give up. I walk a little almost everyday…cos it’s supposed to help with releasing good endorphins refreshing my mind and help with circulation , most times anyways! But it takes a toll on my body…especially my low back and left hip and leg…it gets pretty painful! By 2pm I’m done for the day/night, as all my energy is completely drained. Neck, traps and delts are on fire, which flares up my trigger points. I try to be active but I end up asking myself and pain management these questions “Do you understand the severity and the disrupting influence it has on my life and so many others? They say execise helps but apparently I need really low impact…like swimming. Why does it hurt so bad after any kind of physical activity, like driving, household chores etc? When is it a good day to go out? I will just try my best to take advantage of the good days
It’s truly difficult to maintain a balance, while your going through consecutive days or weeks of pain….the pinching, stabbing, dull, sore, achy, cramping, gnawing, pressing, burning sensations. I can keep going on but we’ve all been there. Sometimes the pain gets so bad I get nauseous and sometimes vomit from the intensity of it all. Inability to concentrate, it gets so frustrating and exhausting. (ex: burning stuff on the stove)…which I never did before. Hence, sleep is important! I either sleep wayyyy tooo much or wayyy too little. Sleep plays a vital role in memory and processing information throughout the day.
Unfortunatley I have fibro fog and bipolar depression fog…which makes my thinking distorted and foggy most days. Chronic pain, stress and insomnia go hand in hand. That’s why I think it’s really important to try to follow a sleep schedule. I wake up at 5am with my hubby, have my coffee, take my meds and use heating pad right away on my neck and shoulders or just take a hot shower right away…if I’m able to. When it’s bedtime, I’m in bed latest 7-8pm with the help of indica medical marijuana program (MMP) and Cbd oil vapes. Before this method I would be up all night. This has been the only thing that has helped me sleep through the night, get through anxiety, joint pain and muscle pain…. some meds are helpful but I was on opiates long term and the result was it was making me fuckin crazy and taking a toll on my bdy and brain. I have enough brain fog as is~LOL!
WELL I hope yu all have a pain free day!!!
With Gentle Hugs,
Raquel Palen <3